Maybe this is done for our own good.
Maybe I don’t understand now, but I hope I will in the future.
Tough one but... life still has to go on.
I think you gonna read this sooner or later. Just wanna say, good luck to your future endeavour.
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OK I’M CRAZY.
5 MORE DAYS PLEASE COME MY LOVELY FRIDAY BABEHHHHH
Things to do during exam preparation:
1. Study
2. Eat more than usual
3. Irrelevant stuff are SO INTERESTING (eg. stick at the sofa for a so-not-interesting movie, throwing rubbish of the whole house, bath more than twice a day) –.-
4. Uncountable hours of sleep though I have ZERO drowsiness
Things to do after exam:
ENTERTAINMENT
Broad definition but thousands of stuff hidden in this word XD
EXAM CAN U PLEASE FLY AWAY ASAP?! :(
Ritter Sport!
I have a GREAT affection on chocolates as usual. A sudden temptation INCREASE my urge to buy all of its flavour.
Their chocolate store in Berlin is AMAZING! A HEAVEN!
The variety of chocolate range which makes me go AWWWW
In the Ritter Sports merchandise, you can mix your own chocolate! AWWWW
Tadah :D
I’m addicted to Ritter Sports. I wanna go Germany already. LOL
Great starting of October with so many good news. I hope this will last :DDD I'm so excited for the upcoming days. Upcoming months :D
Assignments arr assignments, I'm gonna get rid of you all ASAP.
Finals arr finals, faster come and faster end it. :D
It’s already October. October 2nd. Exactly three months you left. Time flies. =.=
Holidays are over. Exams are coming. I have to start studying soon. But I still have 3 major assignments and one quiz left. ARGH. Why are you torturing me like that my final semester? :(
I have tonnes of tasks awaiting me after my finals. I began to worry for my future. My career. Deep dilemma.
Today is really a very bad day for me which has a possibility of life threatening @@
Thank God I’m fine now.
Opportunity is less likely to be given twice.
If the period is over, it’ll never turn back to the original situation.
When the timing comes, you can’t stop the unexpected things rushing towards you.
Good day people ;)
Though the duration is short compared with others like they’ve been together for years and ended it just like that, the pain of mine is compatible with them. Time does not matter, the commitment does.
When God has given me the chance to meet you, I always have this faith that God created this opportunity for a reason. I even had reflections that you’ll be the one for the rest of my life, because there’s this moment, you’ve made me feel like I’m the happiest girl on this earth when I’m with you. And I wanted to spend the rest of my life, with you.
These memories are still so fresh. Refreshing the past, put a silly smile instantly on my face. Of course, tears rolling down at the same time, because I miss all these. You treat LDR as a big issue and you want all these to stop without a signal to me.
Been struggling these 2 months to encounter all these hard times. Giving myself tonnes of excuses, convincing myself that this situation will be fine, as long as I survive till November. And yes, it turned out pretty well because I really did have a strong perception that we’ll figure things out when we meet no matter I get tonnes of objections from everyone. No matter how much tears I’ve accumulated, I strongly believe and I have the faith on you, that me and you do still feel the same. I even hoping for you to change, not being fickle minded, making a real man decision without influential.
BUT, THESE ARE JUST AN ILLUSION.
I’ve done excess on this relationship. Maybe I really acted aggressively and demanding in your point of view. I’ve done so much because I care. You should be worry if I’m not creating a big deal just to get your attention. I see no effort and respond from you. You feel like falling backwards, I tried so hard to mend it back, it looks like I’m wasting my energy all these while. My hand is forever leaving aside, not clapping with yours.
I know you hate me a lot, because I’m giving you confusion, to grab or to lose this relationship. One side of yours wanted to give up so badly without a SPECIFIC reason till now. One side of yours, you can’t let this go.
To people out there, appreciate who you have now in your life. Life’s short. You won’t know what will happen tomorrow. Enjoy the happy moments with your love ones. Obstacles that occur doesn’t mean that God wants this to stop. It’s to test the bonds between you both to encounter it, and appreciate each other more.
Whatever it is, I’m truly shattered this time. I’m going to lead back my normal life soon. Good day people.
Merdeka Day and I’m tidying my room since ages! Of course, the remembrance of something could put me a smile, unknowingly.
Every single wish has its specific meaning.
Though it looks physically unattractive, the words beneath it are more than everything
It’s just merely a paperbag, but that carries a specific memory.
Of course, photographs make people smile, refreshing what memories you all have, and starting to miss them.
The least you expect something to happen, a reverse situation will appear right in front of you without any warning, any sign.
I am experiencing this. But I never stop the new social cycle to stop. In fact, it’s expanding, pretty fast. Sometimes, I am afraid it will go further too. Which I can’t assure too.
I hope I am rational enough to handle it.
One assignment to be done this week and I am off to one week of Hari Raya break! :D I’m so desperate for holidays till I misunderstand that Hari Raya week is supposed to be this week :X Luckily I managed to find out my mistake. If not I might over hyper excited till I skip my assignment :X
One more week to go and my curfew is over! I can’t wait to have my night life back. Scrumptious meals or maybe a sip of tea would be so great. :D
No matter how blunt your situation is, there will still be a glow of light to lead you to the next path of wonderful life. Don’t be so pessimistic on everything. Everything, there is a solution. :)
Tata
no matter what you say, those words won't change my decision.
few more months to have a peace in mind. leave everything aside now and stop making stupid decisions which you think it's absolutely right.
let things flow like the flow of wind and stop creating conflict and hurtful words to worsen things although i know all these are done is to push me away.
chances are given by God. but it depends on how we fully utilise the opportunity to create the ending.
Good day people :)
I found out something which I myself couldn’t believe it.
I can tell no one because this is something which will ruin your reputation as well as your trustworthiness.
I wish I could tell you it’s bad to continue doing that but I find no where to slip in this topic.
Haiz.
Assignments lining up. But my mood is just exactly the same as this song. =/
Rather than textbooks, these are the best to kill my time. It’s better to read all these on my bed with a chilling environment. Procrastination is feeling great now. ;)
To enhance the relaxation, a chilled tau fu fa during night with a peaceful mind with some soft music would be great. Awww
But something is disrupting my peace. I layered my hair. No more equal length hair. No more curls at the bottom. And the hairstylist accidentally chopped off my fringe. Stupid bangs grrrrr =.= I need hairbands and hairclips to survive till it grows. Fml.
I want my hair to growwwwwwwww. =/
So many things happened during the day and totally out of my expectation.
I couldn’t ask for more.
The only thing I can say is, Thank You God for the blessing.
And my family.
Of course, my beloved friends.
:)
And, I changed my blogskin! :D
And, I removed my chatbox due to uncountable unknown sources of spamming.
And and and, if you bother to comment, click on COMMENTS to comment! lmao
It’s like I was being encircled with all negative chi in the month of July. All the unfavourable energy gave me a strong push which made me gone through a tough and lengthy month. A super long July. Thank God it’s a new month now. I believe all these negative chi will become all positive chi in this coming month! Lol. Optimistic enough TYY.
Well to be very frank mathematics is the only thing I am expertise on among all the subjects that I’m taking in my entire life of study. Not to say I’m fantabulous in it, it’s the only criteria I can score. Remember a chapter that we’ve learned before with WHAT IF, ONLY IF, IF AND ONLY IF something like this? Perhaps we can solve in Mathematics well, but it’s hard to determine what will happen if WHAT IF, ONLY IF, IF AND ONLY IF in our life.
What if I never leave Taylor’s?
What if I never go Monash?
What if I never hit the club?
Unsolvable questions. It’s destined. There’re wonderful and bitter memories as well in all these WHAT IF situations. I’m hoping for the best of quality of life now.
Hello August! : )
Sometimes life can be that simple. The art of happiness could be created when you see good food! :D
More…….
AND MORE!
Sometimes admiring the nature’s beauty is a relaxation of mind. This flower is really an impressive achievement by my mother. It’s actually a flowerless plant when she bought it. Somehow her effort of taking care of the plant gave her a miracle of her green thumb. This incident always implying in my mind that nothing is impossible. Lol.
Sometimes you tend to give yourself hope. Every morning is the beginning of hope. Checking on the phone is the first thing to do in the morning to give yourself hope. Although disappointments are mostly the outcome I get, yet I won’t stop myself from having the little tiny hope. Ok I’m definitely living in denial. Stupid is the best word to describe me now.
Sometimes life can’t be as that simple as you thought. Just like now, I’m in a deep dilemma whether I should keep my hair long or cut it shorter. LOL.
TIll here.
Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late
Oh, it tears me up….
Maybe I look absolutely normal in my outer appearance without showing any signs of sobbing and telling everyone I am fine I will be strong I am comfortable now.
Yes maybe during daytime keeping myself occupied I tend to take things not as tense as usual. However the situation is a total contrast when the day is getting dark when I start to refresh our past.
Frustration occurs when the person you can have a shoulder to rely on is miles away from you.
I miss our life… Le sigh.
Hopefully Uni life will keep me even more occupied so that I am able to follow the flow.
Time is running fast and I am going to start my final semester of my uni life (HOPEFULLY IT’S MY FINAL ONE) this week. I am getting rid of my study life SOON =)
I had a great talk with my friend last Friday night at my poolside. Everyone loves to kill their time at my poolside as well perhaps it’s an ideal place to have conversations.
Her words really gave me a strike in mind - 珍惜眼前人。
The past will be a reminiscence. The future? We can’t foresee that. So the most important thing is our present life now.
Always ask yourself a question: Why God gave the opportunity for us to meet?
Always stick this question into your mind when you met someone you really care for.
Always appreciate what you have now.
Never make a decision that will make yourself regret.
As we will not know what will happen tomorrow. So why worry? Live your life to the fullest now is the most important thing now.
Good day =)
2008 once the song struck into my mind, I instantly fall for it.
Now, 2011, I’m still in love with this song. This time it’s slightly different. I’ve placed my soul into the song. Feeling it. Quietly.
Giver is always better than taker.
If you think you could create happiness, what is wrong in giving?
A simple thing could make me happy.
A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. -Phyllis Diller
Good day people =)
Hearing the sound of the depth of the water, I just want to keep quiet and let my brain go blank for a moment. Hypnotizing myself.
Of course, a good companion.
Sun tanning is great. I’m able to find the inner peace while having some emotional music. That makes me refreshing everything. Causing me shedding tears. Although TIME has only 4 alphabets, it takes more than 26 alphabets to go through the memories.
Good day people.
Do I sound ridiculous if I drive all the way to a beach because I wanna lie down on the sand? I guess I am doing that soon. Wheeeee beach wait for me! XD
This is the second time. I never thought of mend it back because I believe if there is first and second time, there must be the third time. Perhaps this is the best solution for the both. I did force myself to cry but I failed. I strongly believe that, I’m too tired of all these.
When I was in anger during the decision, all those negative thoughts flushing into my mind. Thinking you’re just treating me as a fool an experiment a toy.
When I’m slightly chill like now, I have a clearer picture in my mind. I chose to believe my instinct. Not to say that I’m 100% understanding you, but girls’ sixth sense cannot be neglected as well. After analysing all the conversations we had, I truly think you did a very tough decision too. You didn’t want me to suffer for a long period. You think by tighten me down it’s a selfish attitude. You didn’t want us to commit into a relationship for nothing in return. Because one word, you CARE.
No matter how harsh your words are, no matter how wrong our timing is, no matter how the decision will affect us, I hope time will heal. I also believe, the way you express yourself to me, the main factor is you want me to let you go firmly.
Everyone out there will be thinking how stupid am I by siding you though how wrong you express yourself to me, again, I’m the one who had communicated with you these few months, day and night. I somehow, thinking, what you did, is to protect me. If you think we’ll definitely suffer in these 2 years, holding back is the best, I respect you.
Nobody knows what will happen in these upcoming years. We still have a super long pathway to go. If we’re meant to be together, perhaps these two years will be the time to test our fate. We just have to follow what God has planned for us. If we’re just not right for each other, dream will be the best word to describe our fairy tale.
Till here.
I can foresee that my July will be a super draggy lengthy crawling month (Ignoring the facts that results will be out on the 2nd week of July).
I wish that I could be more optimistic telling myself YES I WILL PASS all the subjects this semester. But there is this lousy subject where everyone thinks it’s not as hard as I thought with cheat sheets during examination, causing the obstruction for me to confidently say YES I WILL DEFINITELY PASS ALL. The only thing I can do now is to pray hard. My luck. My faith. Oh Gosh.
Girls are all fickle minded. VERY. The very moment you agree with something, the next moment you’ll have different perception. I am one of them. I chose a harder pathway for myself. Perhaps this is fated and I have to survive in it.
Another thing, I miss my long hair all of a sudden. The thing is, I got the urge to cut my hair even shorter yesterday. I’m just so so so fickle!
I miss my long hair =(
Happiness is to be found, it’s not there readily for you if you want it. If you found yours, why still doubting?
We are seldom happy with what we have now because everyone is bonded with the greediness perception. However if we lose something, that’s the time we’ll break into pieces. So, learn to appreciate.
I hope the happiness within my boundary now will stay and never leave. : )
Till here.
I’m definitely lying if I say I’m totally fine now.
When I roll on my bed, the first thing is the nerves that trigger my tears.
That is why I hate hitting on my bed because that only brings tears but not a good sleep.
Not only my bed, if I’m alone, every second I will do is to flood my eyes with tears. Even now.
I’m so sorry to my mum for sharing this burden with me, worrying me day and night where it’s totally none of her fault, none of her responsibility, none of her business.
I wish I can finish my final paper, which is on Monday as soon as possible so that I will spend the rest of my holiday to heal this scar.
I’m so tired of all these pain and sadness.
Till then.
Words are the best expressing myself when I have no other better ways to deal with it.
The second time, the second time happening when I’m having my finals. Why is this happening on me at this timing EVERYTIME.
Sleepness night, lost of concentration, bad headache, you name it.
Never do something which you will regret, which I did, for my entire life. This is why I’m trying so hard not letting myself to go through this regret process this time. Eventually it fails. Miserably. Not myself, the other party does make this happening.
I hope this will be the best solution. Life is fragile, we won’t know what will even happen tomorrow. If everything has to be calculated and predicted, what is life.
Till here.
My stress level >100%
Adrenaline secretion in my body is pumped to my brain for late night + last minute study. Other not-so-important body function such as my menstrual cycle is malfunctioned.
PMS + delay in period + exam stress = DYING.
I can’t wait for my last paper which is on the 20th. (I have not even started my first paper, which will be tomorrow).
Good luck folks for exam!
Sometimes I talk without the conscious I will hurt your feelings.
Sometimes I express myself in whatever way I like without thinking how you feel.
Sometimes I wonder why am I asking stupid questions over and over again without the knowledge that this will lead to misunderstandings.
I didn’t know whatever I said is so important to you.
I didn’t know my words could hurt you so much,
I didn’t know I’ve got no direction seeing the tears.
I wonder why am I still doubting myself and hurting each other when we mean so important to each other.
I know you sacrifice a lot to make things work out. So do I. Because we care.
The pass, just let it be.
For now, stop having any silly thoughts and treasure the moment we have now.
If the time is back to the beginning, I would say I never regret on whatever decision I’ve made.
I want this to stay.
I know you’re reading this.
To you, my dearest LZS.
excel pass all my papers this semester. I can’t afford to lose in my studies. I can’t afford to extend for another year. I can’t afford the time lag, I can’t afford to waste unnecessary money. Yes, I can’t lose. I’m just another kiasu fella.
After all the distractions, I shall turn my study mode on and start revising for my finals.
Life is good after all :)
I tend to give advices to my friends when they’re in need. However when situation really happens on myself, I’m blunt enough.
Things happen unexpectedly on this beginning half of 2011. Went to an unexpected place which I forever saying NO to all my friends, meeting someone unexpectedly and things just happened unexpectedly.
I would say that I have an unexpectedly wonderful outcome after going through so many UNEXPECTED scenarios. :)
I just can’t wait for my exams to over (where I have not even start studying) and live my life to the fullest with my friends and the love ones. :)
Shall finish up my last assignment now and start revising for my finals in order for me to start dreaming LOL.
Tata :)
I totally lost my concentration today after making a step yesterday night which I thought situation will be fine.
I overestimated my ability.
I underestimated my feelings.
I hope I am just thinking too much.
I hope we’re not that fragile.
I totally care. I don’t know since when.
I hope things will get better as you are important to me.
260311.
Earth Hour from 8.30pm to 9,30 pm. Means all electricity should be off.
I really wonder are we helping much and contributing a tiny favour to the Earth?
Does that one hour manage to dig the awareness of the public and will everyone practise the same action after this annual event by reducing the consumption of electricity on other usual days? Hmmm.
Apparently it failed as I just had my air-cond and lights on. LOL,
Good day. :)
Let me start with something typical. Hello world how are you people it’s been long I’m sorry for abandoning my blog I know you guys must be pissing off when clicking my link with no updates I promise I will update soon which are all lies LOL.
Allow me to do some basic brief updates on my life. Final year of Uni life is getting harder syllabus are getting ridiculously boring motivation in study is lacking slacking in studies and housework are shooting up incredibly!
Finally, let me give you all some proof that I'm still existing in this world LOL.
The Supermoon on last Saturday. It was inevitably brighter than usual. But the size is still as usual from my view.
I’m extremely addicted to Japanese food IDK why. Will consume as much as possible before the supply of food from Japanese ceases LOL X)
Heh :P Lastly, tyy :D. Ignore the pale swollen huge eye bags & face. Seldom camwhore as I’ve grown? LOL. Till then!
It’s not easy for me to find someone whom I can totally rely on.
Those significant ones, I guess fate didn’t grant us a smooth pathway.
Those who are not the ideal one, I’m sorry for not committing anything.
I’m tired….
I’m great at hiding emotions at times and I don’t think I have the need to be an attention seeker. Getting consoles and hugs. Eventually I failed this time – miserably. For those who know what is happening, sorry for being selfish and making you all feeling what I’m encountering. I just can’t wait Uni to reopen now to keep me occupied. My friends, i miss every single one of you. =(
Once in a blue moon, I’m home today after I’ve quit my job last month. So my day started off with a bowl of pork noodle while catching up with my old long time series that I’ve abandoned for ages. In the middle of my leisure, my TV suddenly shut down automatically and wonderfully, my whole block of condominium got no electricity from 12 30 till 5 evening.
No TV, no internet, handphone got extremely low battery, can’t sleep, can’t bathe. Plus I was lazy to get out from my house. I tried my best diving into my bed with all my windows open wide wide. Amazingly, it rained in the next 10 minutes. I’ve to shut all my windows and got myself up sitting in my living room dreaming alone.
Abdominal pain and realised I’m having the monthly cycle. Forced myself showering under the freezing cold water which I hardly bear with it. Wonderful. =X
Switched on my old laptop and wanted to do something else and I randomly clicked on the chat logs we had 2 years ago. I feel the pain. I never thought I will feel the same way just like I did 2 years back. Itchy hand breaks my heart. In fact I have never regret, and never will the times we had before. Fortunately, I’m glad that we are still friends and that will be good for both of us kthxbye.