Cease.

Though the duration is short compared with others like they’ve been together for years and ended it just like that, the pain of mine is compatible with them. Time does not matter, the commitment does.

When God has given me the chance to meet you, I always have this faith that God created this opportunity for a reason. I even had reflections that you’ll be the one for the rest of my life, because there’s this moment, you’ve made me feel like I’m the happiest girl on this earth when I’m with you. And I wanted to spend the rest of my life, with you.

These memories are still so fresh. Refreshing the past, put a silly smile instantly on my face. Of course, tears rolling down at the same time, because I miss all these. You treat LDR as a big issue and you want all these to stop without a signal to me.

Been struggling these 2 months to encounter all these hard times. Giving myself tonnes of excuses, convincing myself that this situation will be fine, as long as I survive till November. And yes, it turned out pretty well because I really did have a strong perception that we’ll figure things out when we meet no matter I get tonnes of objections from everyone. No matter how much tears I’ve accumulated, I strongly believe and I have the faith on you, that me and you do still feel the same. I even hoping for you to change, not being fickle minded, making a real man decision without influential.

BUT, THESE ARE JUST AN ILLUSION.

I’ve done excess on this relationship. Maybe I really acted aggressively and demanding  in your point of view. I’ve done so much because I care. You should be worry if I’m not creating a big deal just to get your attention. I see no effort and respond from you. You feel like falling backwards, I tried so hard to mend it back, it looks like I’m wasting my energy all these while. My hand is forever leaving aside, not clapping with yours.

I know you hate me a lot, because I’m giving you confusion, to grab or to lose this relationship. One side of yours wanted to give up so badly without a SPECIFIC reason till now. One side of yours, you can’t let this go.

To people out there, appreciate who you have now in your life. Life’s short. You won’t know what will happen tomorrow. Enjoy the happy moments with your love ones. Obstacles that occur doesn’t mean that God wants this to stop. It’s to test the bonds between you both to encounter it, and appreciate each other more.

Whatever it is, I’m truly shattered this time. I’m going to lead back my normal life soon. Good day people.