Bang

I can foresee that my July will be a super draggy lengthy crawling month (Ignoring the facts that results will be out on the 2nd week of July).

I wish that I could be more optimistic telling myself YES I WILL PASS all the subjects this semester. But there is this lousy subject where everyone thinks it’s not as hard as I thought with cheat sheets during examination, causing the obstruction for me to confidently say YES I WILL DEFINITELY PASS ALL. The only thing I can do now is to pray hard. My luck. My faith. Oh Gosh.

Girls are all fickle minded. VERY. The very moment you agree with something, the next moment you’ll have different perception. I am one of them. I chose a harder pathway for myself. Perhaps this is fated and I have to survive in it.

Another thing, I miss my long hair all of a sudden. The thing is, I got the urge to cut my hair even shorter yesterday. I’m just so so so fickle!

 

I miss my long hair =(

:)

A super old picture. I know I’m super random. I’m just missing her badly. Lol.

Pheewwiit.

Happiness is to be found, it’s not there readily for you if you want it.  If you found yours, why still doubting?

We are seldom happy with what we have now because everyone is bonded with the greediness perception. However if we lose something, that’s the time we’ll break into pieces. So, learn to appreciate.

I hope the happiness within my boundary now will stay and never leave.  : )

Till here.

Time Stops

I’m definitely lying if I say I’m totally fine now.

When I roll on my bed, the first thing is the nerves that trigger my tears.

That is why I hate hitting on my bed because that only brings tears but not a good sleep.

Not only my bed, if I’m alone, every second I will do is to flood my eyes with tears. Even now.

I’m so sorry to my mum for sharing this burden with me, worrying me day and night where it’s totally none of her fault, none of her responsibility, none of her business.

I wish I can finish my final paper, which is on Monday as soon as possible so that I will spend the rest of my holiday to heal this scar.

I’m so tired of all these pain and sadness.

Till then.

The Road Not Taken

Words are the best expressing myself when I have no other better ways to deal with it.

The second time, the second time happening when I’m having my finals. Why is this happening on me at this timing EVERYTIME.

Sleepness night, lost of concentration, bad headache, you name it.

Never do something which you will regret, which I did, for my entire life. This is why I’m trying so hard not letting myself to go through this regret process this time. Eventually it fails. Miserably. Not myself, the other party does make this happening.

I hope this will be the best solution. Life is fragile, we won’t know what will even happen tomorrow. If everything has to be calculated and predicted, what is life.

Till here.

Stresssssssssss!

 

 

My stress level >100%

Adrenaline secretion in my body is pumped to my brain for late night + last minute study. Other not-so-important body function such as my menstrual cycle is malfunctioned.

PMS + delay in period + exam stress = DYING.

I can’t wait for my last paper which is on the 20th. (I have not even started my first paper, which will be tomorrow).

Good luck folks for exam!

Express.

Sometimes I talk without the conscious I will hurt your feelings.

Sometimes I express myself in whatever way I like without thinking  how you feel. 

Sometimes  I wonder why  am I asking stupid questions over and over again without the knowledge that this will lead to misunderstandings.

I didn’t know whatever I said is so important to you.

I didn’t know my words could hurt you so much,

I didn’t know I’ve got no direction seeing the tears.

I wonder why am I still doubting myself and hurting each other when we mean so important to each other.

I know you sacrifice a lot to make things work out. So do I. Because we care.

The pass, just let it be.

For now, stop having any silly thoughts and treasure the moment we have now.

If the time is back to the beginning, I would say I never regret on whatever decision I’ve made.

I want this to stay.

I know you’re reading this.

To you, my dearest LZS.

I have to.

excel pass all my papers this semester. I can’t afford to lose in my studies. I can’t afford to extend for another year. I can’t afford the time lag, I can’t afford to waste unnecessary money.  Yes, I can’t lose. I’m just another kiasu fella.

After all the distractions, I shall turn my study mode on and start revising for my finals.

Life is good after all :)

Brief One.

I tend to give advices to my friends when they’re in need. However when situation really happens on myself, I’m blunt enough.

Things happen unexpectedly on this beginning half of 2011. Went to an unexpected place which I forever saying NO to all my friends, meeting someone unexpectedly and things just happened unexpectedly.

I would say that I have an unexpectedly wonderful outcome after going through so many UNEXPECTED scenarios. :)

I just can’t wait for my exams to over (where I have not even start studying) and live my life to the fullest with my friends and the love ones. :)

Shall finish up my last assignment now and start revising for my finals in order for me to start dreaming LOL.

Tata :)

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I totally lost my concentration today after making a step yesterday night which I thought situation will be fine.

I overestimated my ability.

I underestimated my feelings.

I hope I am just thinking too much.

I hope we’re not that fragile.

I totally care. I don’t know since when.

I hope things will get better as you are important to me.

Mantra

Living in such complication.

I hope time can prove everything.

Earth Hour

260311.

Earth Hour from 8.30pm to 9,30 pm. Means all electricity should be off.

I really wonder are we helping much and contributing a tiny favour to the Earth?

Does that one hour manage to dig the awareness of the public and will everyone practise the same action after this annual event by reducing the consumption of electricity on other usual days? Hmmm.

Apparently it failed as I just had my air-cond and lights on. LOL,

Good day. :)